Heavy-hearted..
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Grandma's in hospital. Won't go into the details of it but i pray God will give her more time. I pray God will lift me up. Somehow i know God knows exactly how i felt and what i'm going through. Allowing me to experience certain taste of life, not just keeping me ignorant knowing only about happiness.
Many issues are happening and one of them really cause me to think. I wonder how many people really know who am i. I wonder how many understands my character and reactions to certain things and people. I wonder how many will be certain in knowing me and vouch for me when people impose a quick judgement and assumption label on me. As much as i can i be totally myself everywhere in different attributes. But of coz only to people who are worth it. I guess some people just don't care what seeds are the sowing. But as long as it concerns me, i want to sow something that i'm willing to harvest. I pray God give me an understanding heart, eyes that can see and a mind with increasing wisdom that is not beyond what i can control. God knows the best time to give me certain things and i know He has a plan already. I believe whatever i'm going through now is not wasted. Though my heart is heavy, I feel God with me. I will treasure every single experience as long as He's with me and He always will.