I'm glad to have an Awesome husband. I know i will not want to love another person this much. Not this measure, not this "alive"love that keeps multiplying themselves. Lots of pple ask me casually, "how's married life?" and i always answer, "no different from dating life". And they all go like WOW! but to me it's not a WOW thing. We just live our lives like that. True from the beginning, being fully ourselves, and married life didn't make that much of a difference. Just that we know we gave a commitment promise to each other. My Baby never fails to make me smile. He can simply make me angry and then make me laugh. Dun ask me how.. I have no idea i just can't get too angry at him for too long.. Dedicating to my dearest husband, he charms me like no one does. :)

I live by this knowing that everyone yearns to be understood. One way or another. To the extend that they go a little cunning to get their point across, or get real needy like they can never be satisfied no matter how much assurance you give. It is so hard to comfort those that refuse to be comforted, some of them just not understanding why they are going through what they are going through. It can result to all sorts of crazy stuff. And at some point you just feel like slapping them awake and say i'm human also ok!

But the difference comes.. When one good heart person is misunderstood. And that person is an understanding person. Thinking for everyone around him, forcing himself to be strong so that he loved ones will not worry. Dun misunderstanding wrong. It can be major things like slander and accusation. It can also be assumption. Assuming that he can handle it, assuming that he is strong enough, assuming he is this kind of person.. that kind of person.. etc. It aches my heart when i comfort this kind of person. It's only when u really understand his situation, then you can bring comfort. Not by powerful methods, not by saying "move on lah". But really when it's time to be sad, it's time to be sad. At a certain stage, it's ok to cry. But also most importantly at one point we should stop crying.

Alot of pple esp when they go into adulthood, they turn into bottling. Bottling up what they really feel. It's true that burying act will numb the pain. But if one day, something triggers, it can be a song, a familiar environment, a scene in a movie, words from pple, just something that trigger that little hole left unburied, it erupts. And we'll be at a worse loss that we have Never really did move on. Never really did get stronger. For me, i would rather cry at the moment when i need crying the most. Get myself to slowly understand so that one day when something triggers that memory, i have the reason n strength to smile. Pain can still be there.. I never believe that time heals all wounds. Maybe i'm just stubborn. To me when you never ans a qn within yourself, it will forever remain as a question. Ever remembers a tune but forgot the song title? n that unresolved feeling is super irritating n bothering? It's something like that but in a very emotional way. If you are having a problem and u know u can do something about it or at least deal with yourself, dun bury it. Time will not solve that problem, understanding n strength will. Don't plant a bomb within yourself and u don't even hold that remote control. *With Love*