1 Corinthians 16:9
For a great and effective door has opened to me, and there are many adversaries.


One thing that very frequently happen to me is that i very often tend to dream when i'm asleep. And last night i had a really scary dream. And fear griped me as i woke up and i went into prayer. Prayer works!

Here goes my dream:

I'm a a school with a class that is very bonded to one another and to the teachers. And at that time, there is this very popular TV series going on. It's a American TV series talking about different weird incidents, rituals that pple believe and stuff. One of the lesson in class, the teacher who also watched the latest episode put up a demostration of the ritual that pple believed in. I was one of the 4 volunteers (2 guys, 2 ladies). It is believed that that if you die by accident, say you lost both your legs and died of bleeding, you will come back and find a person of the same birth date as you and cause that person to die the same way. Then, that person will take you place in death and you shall live. You got to find that person of the same birth date and make the person die the way you died.
After the demostration, i asked the teacher if he believed that ritual. His countenance suddenly changed. He looked at me grabbed me up and threw me on the floor. The rest began to run and i got up and ran out of the school and when i turn to look back, he was still chasing the students. I run into the forest and i know.. He is dead. And he's back here to find one that is of his same birth date. And i kept running and i woke up.

It was a real bad dream for me. Felt real. Woke up thinking the world will go in chaos and whoever have that birth date revealed live in fear. Might sound like a silly dream but it was really fear gripping for me. But thank God for prayers. :)

Really blessed by Pst Phil. Everytime he comes it's simply life-changing. I believe i have to build back the momentum and be always on the move doing something so that when i searched out an opportunity, i will be able to seize it! And also in every opportunity i got to have an ego management. I'm really encouraged by a point that he shared that when opportunities come, i got to be self-sufficient. It might be why I've been feeling alone at times. To build this area of my life that i don't have to go around relying on people to solve my problem, to stand up for me, to fight for me. Those things are great and deeply touching and is needed at times. But at this season when i seem to fight certain battles alone, i just got to understand that i can only rely on God and also myself. Of coz not into being in a world of just me and myself. I still live life mingling around but relying on the strength and wisdom of God.


Psalm 118:14
The Lord is my strength and song, And He has become my salvation.

I am very ministered by what Pst Kong shared in church about the seasons of Faith. Been feeling down and sometimes alone for a period of time. Somehow feel like i'm facing certain things alone. Facing some "battles" that is actually not my own. Felt accused, felt hated, felt lousy.. But i must say, i feel really lifted up after what Pst Kong has shared. I believe i'm going through a winter season of faith. Where "Night" is long and cold, a long period of time of waiting and effort to trust. And it is clear now. What i really can do is pruning. To look into my life once again and pray and ask God what is it to prune. To humbly come before him and accept that there are things, maybe many things to be pruned. There is no point fighting a battle for myself. The exhaustion will only go away when i'm fighting according to His purpose. I admit that i'm very imperfect and i thank God for a time of pruning. Putting aside all the feelings i felt. Be it being accused, being hated, feeling lousy.. All these emotions strangely doesn't matter or hurt that much when i have that touch of God. I dunno when is my winter ending. And i will not want pre-mature growth. Let everything be according to His time.


Jeremiah 29:11-13
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will see Me and fnd Me, when you search Me with all you heart.